It was Winter Solstice in Avalon and very chilly, but I was warm inside having just been at an ecstatic dance. When I wandered out of the dance at Pendragon House….I felt pulled to go to the White Spring again and to the Tor…the sun was low and bright on the levels and lighting up the Tor.
When I got to the white spring, I felt to go in…the energy was really beautiful and strong in there, it was all lite up with candles, and people had placed roses all around inside….when I went in to the back where the water is pouring out of the earth, I was amazed to find the most beautiful black madonna shrine….
and there I was in the deep damp earth….feeling this womb place, standing with the mother, thinking how vaginal and transformative it was inside the white spring, and yet there was so much motion, such a beautiful light, such a perfect place to be held in the darkness, to think about what I am letting go of….to find my center to be cleaned by the water….and to feel the other people, to be in a space that was being held with reverence…to feel the goddess invoked…
and there is this Swan sculpture in there….so I am standing on the waters edge, of the main pool, next to a sculpture of a swan couple, and there are roses, and a beautiful small altar with offerings, and candles and incense burning, and I just feel the grail codes so deeply, and all the magic of Avalon, the deep tradition that is held, in some many ways…by each person that pilgrimages here and finds meaning solace and inspiration…
I felt free of judgment and duality, and in acceptance…
of “what is” …. no resistance…just content to be alone in my witnessing, happy to be receiving the codes of this sacred. place and feeling all that water and light & sounds of singing and sacredness.
I felt so grateful to how this sacred day of Winter Solstice was unraveling and what was opening up for me today.
Interested in Learning More about the White Spring, check out their lovely website: https://www.whitespring.org.uk
after I left the White Spring….
In joy I walked up the Tor and spent time receiving the sunset, again surrounded by so many people doing the same thing, but today I felt grateful to feel the others close.
I felt accepting, and surrendered to our shared humanity……I felt introspective…..and so grateful for time in Avalon, which is quickly drawing to a close….I know this land lives in my soul now.
This Pilgrimage has deepened my commitment to serving myself, to loving myself, and building genuine self confidence …. Coming out of delusion and embracing the deepest most authentic parts of me….all of me………..we are all wounded and broken….with parts of our selves that are frozen in confusion.
Avalon is a rich mixture of so many elements……and a place where one is invited to reconcile our relationship with all the variant elements in ones self and in the world.
Some say that Avalon is the Planetary Heart Chakra of the planetary energy system… and in such a place I would expect nothing less then to be faced with the challenge of learning to love myself and the reflections in the world with equal part acceptance for what is…
for it is only from this place that we become tender hearted enough to be inspired into real change inside ourselves.
And so it is with an open heart and excitement that I rested in the deepest darkest night of the year...
allowing change to be what is, on this Sacred Earth Quest.